Feeling Crappy

So I called the doctor’s office back Wednesday morning stating I know I’m miscarrying didn’t see the point in doing the blood.   "We just got to make sure the levels get back to 0 please go.   I told them I feel crappy.  I have no energy I’m exhausted. Have you been changing you pad every 5 minutes.  No I said.  (I think that’s an automatic bypass you guys and straight to the ER. ) She didn’t say much more.  Really I wanted them to do a CBC as I’m pretty sure I’m anemic from bleeding so much. Must be the same triage nurse from several years ago that told me that if I wasn’t going through pads like crazy it wasn’t a miscarriage….. Hate to tell you.  I just increase my bathroom visits during these times .   Enough of that.  I didn’t go that day to get the blood work as I didn’t have time.  I got home and went over there but the lab was closed. So I did it yesterday morning.  They called me at noon to tell me I was miscarrying (Duh)   Didn’t need a blood test to tell me that.  By this time my hormones have evened out  and I have known a good week or so and have accepted it.  As I said before this one emotionally wasn’t hard.  The last one was.  This one I felt like something was wrong  from the start.  Why I didn’t call them right away to tell them.Hell I didn’t even test right away even though I was more than suspecting it. It easier when you don’t think its going to turn out okay anyway.  Jonathan, deep down I knew he would be fine there was not an ounce of worry with him.  There’s always that on the surface worry but subconsciously I knew he was coming and be perfect.   Its weird that way your subconscious knows.

Anyway they wanted me to call them back.  by this time I’m feel lousy extremely exhausted, headache,  I know I’m anmeic.  They wanted the test done again in 2 days with the CBC .   I told them , look I’ve been bleeding like sieve for now 8 days.  So I have an appointment today at 10 am and they told me not to eat in case they want to do the D&C.    I just want to feel normal at this time.   Its one thing knowing but now its just dragging on and feeling crappy too.

I’m taking the day off as I don’t know what they are going to do. Even if they don’t the exhaustion is getting to me.