Big Tests

  I hate big tests…there’s always so much riding on them and yet we all have t o deal with them.  No matter what.  Tests in school to get a diploma, Drivers Test  both the written and road.   I’ve always been anxious over them. I know I test nervous despite what anybody says.  I knew this test would be tough but as I watched most of the members of my class pop up on facebook  I was at least hopeful,  You know  you kind of gauge yourself off of the people around you thinking well I’m smarter than them and they passed it.  I just didn’t want to look foolish being the only one in the class whom failed it so far. Who knows there might have been one and I don’t know about it but so far most of the class seems to have done well. 

As I got done and clicked finish…..there’s no going back. They do a few more questions, a survey to see what you thought of the test site.  I came out of the room and the person was there as the print started printing…….and the papers are flipped over to read.  In small typing so nervous I could barely read……….you have passed this exam. Your score is……… I looked at a gain to see if it was a joke or that I forgot to read the NOT but it wasn’t there.  I PASSED. I really passed the exam.  I’m now officially a Certified Respiratory Therapist!!! Holy Crap!!! After 3 years of starting this journey along the way stopping to have a baby . I did it. I finished it.

I was shaking when I left the test site. I didn’t call anyone I needed to compose myself. I know driving in this state??? I turned up the music and bopped down the highway….High on life. Once I got back into city limits as I had to take it in one of the bigger cities near us. I called home to tell them and called my parents.   I was keyed up but tired.  I was REALLY hungry.  We went out to celebrate. Really we went to a diner as I had a craving for beef and gravy sandwich YUM!!!  Jonathan ate fries off of Dennis and Andrew’s plate dipping his fries in my gravy.  He was happy.  

We didn’t do much the rest of the time as I was emotionally and physically spent.