Prenez-moi comme je suis, prennent ma vie

I suppose I am going to have to compile a list of songs I can no longer allow in to my "party shuffle" on itunes.  I say this because "Everything I do" by Bryan Adams just came on, and I realized that I really can’t listen to it anymore.

So, here is the list I can think of at the moment:

Everything I Do: Bryan Adams

Maybe I’m Amazed: Paul McCartney

Always: Bon Jovi

Love of a Lifetime: Firehouse (I know, I know)

The all-time number one song I will never listen to again is:

Smoke and Ashes: Tracy Chapman

I guess it would be difficult to explan exactly why, but there was a time I listened to that song on repeat for weeks.  Even at work.  On the bus.  On my bike.  All the time.

I could go on, but I’d rather not think about it.  And the more I think about it, the worse I feel. 

Grief is good, right?  And i know this is for the best.  For all intensive purposes, we have been done for a long time.  I guess its just a lot of things that are getting to me.  Five years for us was coming up this month.  I am not in love with her anymore, and no matter how hard I try, there isnt anything I can do about it.  But I know I’ll cry the day she leaves.

I hate having a heart sometimes.