maybe

Maybe I really am crazy.  Just a thought Im exporing here, and I dont know where to define it.  Is it crazy when you are waiting up at 11:06 for someone to come home who doesnt want you anyway?  Or is it crazier to believe, even for a moment, that this might matter to someone?

I dont know.  Seems like Im fishing here or something, but in actuality, I think its just my own discussion I am having with myself.  I guess thats what most of these are.  Funny fact:  I am so nervous that I rehearse and re-rehearse things I am going to say and move my mouth silently.  Most people never notice, but i do it all the time. 

I dont think people know how insecure I am