UNEXPLICABLE PAIN…. AND HURT

I give up… i can’t take this not anymore.. Not right now i can’t handle this.. No more trying to date.. No more trying to find the perfect guy He doesn’t exist.. I’m just going to have to get used to being alone for the rest of my life.. There’s no one out there for me.. They all want sex.. not me as a person. just physical pleasure..why does it come down to how much physical it is? why can’t it just be talkign spending time together? am i too old fashioned? I sit here tears runnign down my cheeks.. Knowing i can never be happy completely because no guy sees past my pussy or what i put out..

Why does every guy i know have to be that way.. WHY WHY This toture for me… ALl i want is to be respected as a human being with feelings… not just when can i fuck. Why GOD did u make me this way? SO Full of pain, anger, and torment..? Caring way more than i should.. which creates more heartache than anything else.

Offically Kimberly Is GIVING UP ON DATING and guys ALL TOGETHER… PERIOD. NO ifs, and ors or BuTS. i wont give up what i have with S. if thats all i have as happiness i need that now… More than anything.. i need that..Friendship to just keep going..