….. Thinking…..

well i got a appointment to finally be retested on my allergies, that will be done in 6 days.. The tenth of october. Going ot be there for four hours… *SighZ* but it has to be done. THen next is time to set up a ppointment with my regular dr, and a female dr in the area. *SighZ* Been waking up half numb on my right side… MOre freaking hot flashes and just plain uncomfortableness… i dont know whats going on inside me and im a little scared to find out but i got to.

My sister is such a bitch …. her bday is this friday and well its like she doesn’t want to spend time with us. ( my mom and me) ever since my sister got married its like my mom and i dont exist every time she comes home she spend time with her husbands family more than she ever does us. Granted we fight alot but what family doesn’t? I would like to see her more than just on the holidays and bday… and even then if we see her its only for a few hours.

moms been in every crazyness modeabout finances and so have joe and i. mom more than us tho shes going through her retiremnet fund…. *SighZ* joe and i are thinking about taking on my birth place but that is still under discussion…. so who knows.

I’ve been playing runescape alot just to relax and avoiding here, and my other fave to play neopets. I don’t know why im avoiding here.. I guess its because ur lives seem so much better than mine. *breathe* one breath at a tiem here..

Laundry’s almost done so i have to go *huggles*