sick/ happy n miserable all rolled into 1

Well surprise surprise I’ve come down with the usual sinus/allegery cold and its a dooozy. not to mention the financail strain im currently running….As i said in my last entry J got a job down here Whoooooooo HOOOOOOOO. and oh wow he can’t afford a place to stay let alone the gas to get  down here… *sighZ* why does life always have to be against my happiness? first J couldn’t find a job down here n now that he has one he can’t afford to move here.. *Cries* all this stress i need a break not to mention im still in school for 7 more weeks n then my week summer break, not to mention the surgery i have to schedule, and the time off of work that i can’t afford… I might as well declare bankruptcy because i can’t afford anything not even food, or nessecites… *cries* how how do u make things work in these situations, tears are running down my face because of how frustrated i am…  with life and all its obsticales its throwing in my way… The only good thing i have going for me right now is J. and theres no way in hell that i want to give that up. i will do whatever i can to keep him… I sometimes wonder if that includes selling my soul again. to the material beings so i can get enough money to break f’n even. since i can’t even seem to do that. But then again i got hours cut just like everyone at work so helll…, fuck me. fuck life….. n love my baby … I love u J!!!!!!!!!