my dramatic monologue for English “my inner soul”

My inner soul

TO love is all that i do, give of my self force myself to listen and give my advice. All i ask is that someone listens to me. But i recieve no love my love is spurnned by those I choose to give it to. Now I’m haunted in my dreams Receiving sleepless nights heart of pain is all i know. there seems to no cure for me. Revealing my inner soul, reveals the pain and sorrow only i know. The only one who can help is far far away. Talking only makes it hurt worse. How can someone deal with anythign when talking about it hurts worse than experiancing the actual event. Opening wounds that you thought had healed with time. But seeing that person reopens the wounds emotionally inflicted. When he graduated he became a ghost of my past, communication between us stopped.It hurt my soul. He ripped my soul into tiny pieces. I wont recover. But I still love, how is this possible that when my soul and emotions are so against my love, that i still love? Not the same person who hurt me.but a deeper unreturned love for someone younger than me. he has a twin and i see them everyday. My heart yearns for acceptance from him. So what that we’re two different colors or that our minds meet differences of opions or tthat I’m older than him. None of this matters. Its that were able to express our thoughts and immediatly know or understand where that person is coming from. Thats what matters and its the only thing I truely care about when we see each other is that our bond is the same day in and day out.