im not sure waht to make of this….

Talked to S. last night about what has been going on and asked when i would see him again then i said probably not until i get a car again right? and he said u might not see me again…

I felt really bad… and then i remembered this isn’t supposed to last, its just Friends with benefits.. What am i doing? Going a little freaked out over something thats supposed to mean nothing at all.

Try to keep in my head all of the good things its done for me.. and if i dont see him again… just keep the good things close at hand… for rememberence…

I haven’t shed tears since my meltdown… but maybe i will later tonite..

Lataz all