i feel whole??? was that supposed to happen?

Well ever since thursday night with S. i feel whole. not like im torn between so many things, that are pulling me in different directions. When i went to church this morning, it was great i felt wonderful.. IS this the begining of happiness for me? IF this is all it took for me to be happy or in a prolonged.. good mood so to speak why didn’t i do it sooner?

I know i can’t have S. all to myself for previous reasons already mentioned. but that night was so worth it. now i just can’t have my mom find out about what i’ve done she’d kill me. She say u weren’t raised taht way how could u.. She wouldn’t even begin to understand. She says i brought all my problems on my self. yeah well so what if i did… being with S. fixed most of it.. or at least it has stopped some of the things that were haunting me…

Skip took it rather well, i think… but also he was surprised. So i dont know where things are with him.

School’s ok

Money situations about to be fixed.

And i have nothing else to say right now.