How sad it is……A single girls look on Vday

How sad it is when every feb 14 sneaks up on u. and ur single. It tears me up inside. my away message for my aim said ” im trying to get my vday crying out of the way early, because i have finals this week.” How sad is that? I downloaded my diary and zipped it to S. saying i can’t talk about my past but u can read about it. because i just can’t deal with it. AM i just a fucked up emotional peice of crap?

I know that guys dont want me physically, except that S. has offered friends with benefits. I know im not the supermodel chick type. Why can’t guys just see me and like me for who i am not what i look like? i hate it that im always considered one of the guys just a friend nothing more. is that because i was a country girl? I hate personally as im sure all single girls do hate this holiday. I know it makes feel useless and stupid. because i have no one to share it with. I wonder why i am even here on this earth on this day. sometimes i wonder why i shouldn’t just die for all my pain on this stupid stupid holiday.

Im going to go before i start to cry. im not writing in the safety of my own apartment im writing in the school library.

hope u all have a better vday than me.