how can i do this to me?
*dedicated to BT* every other guy friend i did this way
I look at you with stars in my eyes
you flirt with me but when it comes right down to it
you say no it can’t be.
I know i get in over my head but thats just me
my heart i can’t control because God’s guiding me
or so i think when each time i feel something toward
a best guy friend.
Then i hit myself over the head. When he says he don’t feel the same. I should have learned my lesson and yes i know their right.. but sometimes it just wont leave my soul alone.
calling to me in the night so i can’t sleep. Or never leaving my thoughts so i can concentrate on homework or sticking to a diet.
Each time its the same it repeats and repeats. how can i do this with every guy friend i either create an obsession or i end up ruining our friendship and pushing him away.
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I dont want to do that this time. so im trying. The gift i gave to him was a unicorn my mind held over heart because he’s mixed and im white. he will always mean much to me and i know i can’t lie to him.
before i left school for christmas break i hope BT knew i was facing a fierce emotional battle over this. Prayers appreciated.
love ya all and MERRY CHRISTMAS readers
Hey! Merry Cristmas to you, too! I’m sorry about all the shit with your guy friends. I know what it’s like, because Mike is my best guy friend. I have pushed countless guys with wonderful friend potential away because I felt something that I was afraid of. You just have to wait for the right guy, I guess….he’ll come eventually…I promise. Good luck with everything! xoxo ~*~Laura~*~
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