hmmmph

how the hell can u deal with shit;
when all there is is shit around u?
the pain is cutting edges like a sharp knife
the hurt is making it deeper n harder to over come.
the frustration is a sure shot for the kill.

Anger, Lies, Deceptions its all there continueing,
a cycle that seems to never end.
Friends screw friends over again n again,
expecting things to be ok when their not.

How do u make them see, what their doing is affecting u?
how do u make them understand not only are they hurting, but hurting others too? How do u show a person their unknowningly killing emotions, friendships and feelings?

Survive it, i have managed to do… but not sure i can make it anymore..
im dead inside killed by the pain thats surrounding me… Changing the enviroment n the friends did nothing to the pain.. the heartaches and the pieces of my heart getting chipped into smaller pieces…

Thinking i’ve found the one n then getting more hurt than i need to last a life time.. then having my heart want to follow two different people n caring strongly for them thats HELL in a nutshell.

Im stopping here for now my rant is a little too long but oh well… i needed to vent a bit…