going slowly out of my mind.

Why can’t i be firm with him and once i make a decision stick to it? And why does he keep talking to me after i tell him not to? one of my chat online friends says he likes me… but i dont see how thats possible cus i’ve only seen him once n he’s only seen me once.

my cunt is hungry, as someone else put it and so im looking for anyone that could possibly fill it no matter what damage it may do emotionally.Im not sure how i really feel about that… However he can be sweet when he puts his mind to it.

This is another reason why i just want to give up on relationships, guys like playing with my mind. i play my own mind games with myself i dont need anyone else doing the same. I feel such pressure now… with school, starting a new job (pizza maker), and the everyday stress of friends (that i care about).

What to do, what to do, i have no idea anymore. Its like i lost my connection,with myself.that i had gained, with S. must go and just live life the way u want and face the consequences later are his words ringing through my mind…