Confused….

If you read the past three entries then ur current on my life.If u have not i suggest u do so to understand where this is comming from.

A ex friend introduces me to this guy. And so we talk, about mundane things and how he has a gf and a open relationship. and then we decide to meet exchange phonenumbers adn set a date.

u should know how that went cus i wrote about it. and now the balls in my court if i want to do something like this again… i seriously dont know. Ive been thinking about this before i even met him in person. How far i wanted to go in a relationship, if i ever had one. If i would be okay with if that person had a current relationship with another person. And im so lost. i think i want to, but then i think about our date and then im not so sure. I need some advice or some help. not sure which. so i got online after he left and talked to one of my faves BoysvsGirls( hairball writes for them) and talked it over with him because im not sure what to do or waht i want. and u read about our converstation. im still not sure. how is that?

and even now i tried to talk to him and he wouldn’t talk to me. so im more at a loss than any thing. god i dont know what to do. i feel so stupid. so stupid.

i hope u guys can provide input and help me figure this out.

peace