Class journal entry

Journal
12-13-04

Three memories from my life, hmm good or bad memories is the question?   My earliest memory is that of when I was three years old and my dad died not to long after I turned three. His doctors missed his pancreatic cancer and so I’ve been scared of doctors ever since. Most of my childhood it seems all I did was go to funerals, which isn’t a fun place to be.
The next thing that stands out in my life is how I always seemed depressed or sad. I would try to change things in my life and couldn’t and it would frustrate me. I would go to school counselors and it would seem to just make it worse than it was.
The happiest memory I have is finding my boyfriend. There is a thirty-three year age difference between us but that doesn’t matter to us. We compliment each other very well. My life seems to go much smoother now that I have him in my life than when I did not. Life changes have occurred and changed me but I think this one has the biggest impact. When you know someone is for you and only you within fifteen minutes of meeting them, well it is kind of crazy to most people but not to us. If love at first sight exists then that is what we have and we have been together since January 28th of 2004 so almost a year!! He brings joy and happiness back into my sad life.

“I am a camera with its shutter open, quite passive, recording, not thinking.”- Christopher Isherwood.
Well, that’s a pretty true statement because until we learn to interpret what we see and hear we just go through life recording and observing. Seeing how things are wondering what we can do to change that but have no option to because we can’t have an opinion about it yet.