Bishop trying to help me calm down i think
KaG8402: hey babe
Anasazi83: hey gurl!
KaG8402: im listening to wff playing on the tv
Anasazi83: ?
KaG8402: Raw is War World Wrestling Federation
Anasazi83: Wow
Anasazi83: I wish I had that
Anasazi83: wait
Anasazi83: I do
Anasazi83: DAMNIT!
KaG8402: its on TNN
Anasazi83: Oh
Anasazi83: then I don’t have it
Anasazi83: I don’t have cable
KaG8402: u poor thing
KaG8402: Rock and Rhyno are battling out for the WCW championship
Anasazi83: Who won?
KaG8402: the ROCK
KaG8402: with injured ribs
Anasazi83: Geez
Anasazi83: got milk?!
KaG8402: he took two gores tho
KaG8402: although i am kinda depressed right now
KaG8402: Chris i can’t handle this
Anasazi83: *holds her close*
KaG8402: Skip invites me to go to a haunted cemetary with him on sunday and then todya he tells me he has a girlfriend
KaG8402: why couldn’t he have told me sooner
KaG8402: ?? it just adds more complication to my life that i have to deal with
Anasazi83: 🙁
KaG8402: as soon as i save my diary entry i want u to read it
Anasazi83: okay
KaG8402: my entry
KaG8402: *deep breaths* i wont cry i just wont
KaG8402: i can be cold i really can.
Anasazi83: I know hun
KaG8402: damn it chris why this why now
Anasazi83: I don’t know
KaG8402: i thought i could eventually get past this. now i dont knwo im becomming more confused and i feel so much pain like my heart has been ripped apart and i can’t find the peices
KaG8402: waht am i going to do
Anasazi83: *pulls out his heart and cuts it in half with a butter knife and puts half in his chest and puts the other half in her chest careful not to touch her womanly areas*
KaG8402: u dont have to do that i dont think
Anasazi83: Yes I do
KaG8402: but its much appreacited
Anasazi83: I want you to be happy
Anasazi83: I was depressed before
Anasazi83: I am good now
Anasazi83: I know how it feel hun
KaG8402: like i said to skip by the fates i will never be happy
Anasazi83: yes you will
Anasazi83: Hun. Tell me a talent of yours?!
KaG8402: life has always worked against me. i can never have what i want. i can’t have u and i can’t have Skip and if i love someone i end up creating distator … *starts to cry* i can take anymore life without some kind of love other than my family
KaG8402: i cant
Anasazi83: Hun.
Anasazi83: *smile*
KaG8402: not right now its impossible
Anasazi83: People told me up and down 5 million times what I am gonna tell you.
Anasazi83: I have been EXACTLY where you are. I mean I walked in your footsteps
Anasazi83: you remember when I was like that right hun?!
Anasazi83: It will get better
KaG8402: i do its just so hard anyway
Anasazi83: Hun. What gives you joy?!
KaG8402: at this momemnt nothing
Anasazi83: you don’t enjoy sittign down in a shady spot and writing?!
Anasazi83: Maybe looking at a tree in the park and wanting to draw it
Anasazi83: Or get on a bike and just ride?!
KaG8402: nope
Anasazi83: I bet you everything special in my life if you found something specil you woudl see a big change in your life
KaG8402: probably i would but where do i find such a individual when all i get is shit and no respect where im at
Anasazi83: ?! In yoruself hun
KaG8402: yeah well my self just went down the tubes and im not good at starting over