BIg surprise

The expected outing for my bday didn’t go as planned as the girls i was going out with got called into work Big ass fucking surprise there. I have never really done much to celebrate my bday with others. and when i actually make plans to do so they backfire in my face. *sighZ* THen i was moody as all get out and J probably hates me right now for how mood i was. *SighZ* god i hate PMSINg Its even worse when stress and everything fuck up your cycle. AND TEN TIMES worse when ur dr still hasn’t gotten back to you over the test results.

Grrrrrrrrrrrz i can’t even concentrate on hw let alone anything else i need to do. I wish sometimes that this would all just end. My money problems, life, everything. And at others i just can’t get enough of J and he is the reason i keep waking up in the morning . How did i get this way? Is it just the pms or is it other things from the past comming to haunt me again? Fuck if i knwo. *SighZ*

Enough ranting for now . Cherios.