another look at a particular poem i wrote.

I want….. Many things 4/12/2001

I want a man

who can like me for who i am

I want a true friend

that i can count on

I want a understanding of who i am

and why i feel the way i do

I want respect for fellow man

no stupid racism

I want to be accepted for not being normal as

in weight and looks.

I want to share my life with the perfect soulmate

nice and quite who understands me

I want respect to be greeted with a

smile and hello not snickers behind hands

I want people to realize I have hopes and dreams and feelings too

I want to take the world to a friend who thinks hes shy and show him how fun it can be

i still feel this way. and this was over a year ago. its been published. and yet i still feel this way. something i felt a long time ago is still holding true over me. is it because its valentines day? or is it the current situation with S. i have no idea. i just know in my soul i dont want to let S. go from my life right now.

and im hoping to find my sanity this weekend. i’ve been so scatterbrained and stressed its rediculus. now that finals are over maybe i can find my zone and kick it. althought it would be nice to just kick it with s. i dont have a car to go home. thats the trouble with things. ahhh. im just going to go mellow. lataz