a differnt’ Take on my current Situations with S.

Jellybean327710: hmm

Jellybean327710: so your pretty religious?

LftBhndW2002: would say so

LftBhndW2002: but im not a model christian either, i have my ups and downs just like everyone eles

Jellybean327710: probably a good thin

Jellybean327710: *thing

LftBhndW2002: and this is one of those downs. but i was praying about this type of change in my feelings before this type of situation occured

Jellybean327710: so

Jellybean327710: where did you meet this guy?

LftBhndW2002: one of my hs friends introduced us

Jellybean327710: and all he wants in friends with bennies?

LftBhndW2002: friends first benefits laters

LftBhndW2002: i do have issues that i have to work out withmy self that i knwo. and he and i have been talking about them

Jellybean327710: hmmm

LftBhndW2002: i know its tough isnt’ it

Jellybean327710: well i would suggest

Jellybean327710: you tell this boy

Jellybean327710: that you have issues that you need to deal with……and that you may need to separate yourself from him to keep your head clear

LftBhndW2002: he and i have only seen each other once

Jellybean327710: and then set yourself down and deal with your issues and if you need to see someone about them then by all means do it

Jellybean327710: you know him from online?

LftBhndW2002: everything other converstation we’ve had has been online.

Jellybean327710: hmmm

LftBhndW2002: i know

Jellybean327710: do you live in the same city

Jellybean327710: town what ever?

LftBhndW2002: no

Jellybean327710: where does he live?

Jellybean327710: how far away

LftBhndW2002: about an hour to 45 min

Jellybean327710: hmm interesting

LftBhndW2002: it is isn’t it

Jellybean327710: so

Jellybean327710: what do you think you should do

LftBhndW2002: i really really want to.

Jellybean327710: want to what ?

LftBhndW2002: but this man makes me have butterflies when inver had butterflies before…. Sex. Im not used to nervous around guys i never was meet him and then i am suddenly neverous and shy where before i was bold and flirtatious

Jellybean327710: your in love

Jellybean327710: do you realize that

Jellybean327710: how old is he?

LftBhndW2002: in his early 20’s like 20-21 not sure at this time of night.

Jellybean327710: hmm

Jellybean327710: well atleast hes close in age

LftBhndW2002: how could i be in love, when i new from the beging all he could ever offer me was friendship and friends with benifits?

Jellybean327710: trust me ….ive been there …

Jellybean327710: you have butterflies ….your nervous your fidgety and your not yourself all the tiem right

LftBhndW2002: butterflies only with him not when im at school or anywhere else

LftBhndW2002: everytime in not talking to him im my normal self

Jellybean327710: wen you think about him

Jellybean327710: you get butterflies ?

LftBhndW2002: nope just when i talk to him or im in his presence which was only once

Jellybean327710: i think you maybe in love

LftBhndW2002: why?

Jellybean327710: because your happy yet sad

Jellybean327710: but you

Jellybean327710: confuzzed yet not

Jellybean327710: you get butterflies

Jellybean327710: no matter how manytimes you have had them

LftBhndW2002: and that puts me in love?

Jellybean327710: it could

LftBhndW2002: wow i thought i was not capable of that

Jellybean327710: i thought the same thing about myself

Jellybean327710: it happens

LftBhndW2002: and to the perosn u least expect it to

Jellybean327710: exactly

LftBhndW2002: lord and here i thought i was doing okay

Jellybean327710: you are doing ok

LftBhndW2002: if what u think is true then theres no way im okay.

Jellybean327710: this is something that you need to figure out

Jellybean327710: in order to make evrything to be better

LftBhndW2002: i thoguht i knew

Jellybean327710: im just giving you ideas

Jellybean327710: this is something for you to figure out

Jellybean327710: or of course

Jellybean327710: this could be a very serious case of infatuation

LftBhndW2002: obsession counts as infatuation, right ive been down that road i dont think so

Jellybean327710: hmm

Jellybean327710: well i guess you have thinking to do yes

LftBhndW2002: alot more than i previously thoguht

Jellybean327710: hmmm

Will comtemplate this but what do u guys think? its a fresh voice and somethign i hadn’t really considered. yes i have issues so what we all do. some more thatn others.well its late after midnight and i have a 9 am class so cherios people.