4/15/04

i dig so deep inside my self n all i find is what u have left inside. u have changed the way i am, the way i feel, the way i look at things for all time, n yet i struggle to achieve what u ask of me.

I miss u so much physically, and emotionally when i have to relinguish u to ur job/house. it has to be love… i ‘ve never ever felt this way about someone…. I see my whole life with u. having kids with u… and im not really big on kids but i want to have ur kids. and as we discussed to day im ready to say the hell with my family for when im done with school lets just get married quietly and just not have the trauma…. we know we both want it. why not give ourselves that happiness..?

*sighz* i love u J….