11/4/03

Damn damn in double damn… Lol okies okies things are semi good im moving into a house for $160 per month its a good deal its my room mates grandparents house…It reminds me of S.’s house… with the general layout of it… except for the fact that it doesn’t have a basement…

In other news phone calls every nite for hours on end its crazy i got all these guys calling me telling me they wish they were here with me but i can’t even get a local guy in my home state.. its rediculus… ALl my guys that are interested in me Live outa state. THeres one in DC, TN, Tx its nutterz but i love it… its like my support group, their always there for me no matter how bitchy i seem, or how down n out i am on a particular day their there….

the one in DC has offered marriage hypothetically if we ever get un poor enough…. but thats just crazy yea i love him but if we would actually get along besides having great sex well i dont konw…

The one in Tx is getting a job transfer to come see me… he is way older than i but still its like he treats me as a equal not as a teen… i admire that.. but it also kind of creeps me out that he is doing that so he can be closer to me… i have discussed some of my fears about him actually doing this but he doesn’t care if he does it n it dont work out which to me says a lot about waht his feelings for me….

the one in Tn has lied to me but came clean on his own with out prodding but he is a schizoid person… aka he has schizofrenia… which is partly why he lied to me he wasn’t conciously doing it, it was one of his personalities… so i have to take that into account when i deal him but hes such a sweetheart…. even with his multiple personalities.. 🙂

Okies this is a really long entry cherios *mwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaahhHHHS*