Well

We slept in today. That was my break.
I didn’t get up and take Z to daycare, as it turned out he wasn’t feeling fell anyways. We layed in bed all morning, let his dad know and he picked him up late this afternoon.

he almost made it inside, their dad that is.

he was walking apprehensively to the side door which he never does. He always waits near his truck. He asked me the same question twice, out of nerves. He made a couple jokes to make conversation and I went along with it lightly but quickly. Then I ran back inside.

he’s not reeling me in again.
im not going to be the one to ask him to see his daughter. Im not going to be his friend and im not going to lead him on the way he lead me on.