I did it again

I got angry…..then stuffed my face. No fasting and praying. Maybe just praying. Maybe piano practice. I gotta go to the library tomorrow.  I wanna trust in God, but how can I let this go, and live with myself. I mean they don’t see what’s going on, but I do.  And I let them know already.  But they simply won’t do anything about it!😡😞  It’s so frustrating I want to pull my hair out, AHHhhh!!!  And I’m supposed to stay here and take care of my mom.  I gotta get a job. I gotta get out of here.