and.I’m.there

It’s been a long, long time since I’ve had anything of value to say here.  Or anywhere, for that matter.  Things are changing now though, and I guess I want to spend a little bit of time writing about it in a place I feel comfortable.  I say this time and time again, O.D. is always there when you need it.  That’s why I never delete this diary, no matter how painful/ embarassing/ funny/ strange it feels to go back and read it.  For the most part I don’t go back and read old entries because I can’t stand that voice inside of my head, telling me how naieve I was.  Everybody grows up, and we all learn lessons along the way.   

Anyways, to the point.  I’ve finally come to this place in my life, or at least in the last 6 months, where I feel like I’ve accomplished what needs to be done.  The last few months have been a tough road to travel.  (Pardon the cornyness.)  Stephen and I are talking, but when we do there are never any emotions involved.  We talk about numbers, money, belongings… Sometimes the weather.  I’ve been going it alone since this all happened, trying to sort out what’s next.  And it’s taken this long to get to where I feel I need to be.  I’m working at  a job I absolutely love – at least so far!  With some great people, and meeting lots of new, interesting people along the way.  I’ve got a place to live, will be moving into my new apartment hopefully on the 20th, and I’m very much enjoying spending time with somebody who treats me extremely well.  The details of which I won’t go into, because for the moment, I’m just happy keeping that information to myself! 

So I’m currently sitting at work, and actually feel like I’m slacking off a bit (I wonder why?) I’m going to leave it at that for now, and perhaps I’ll be back soon with more to say. 

xox

K.