teenagers
Sometimes I feel a little jealous of teenagers. Not because I want to be a teenager again necessarily but I do miss some of it. Plus I feel a lot of teenagers waste their teenage time being useless. I definitely don’t feel I squandered my time, I lived the hell out of it. I did a million and one ridiculous things and I never really regretted them because they all bring you to the current place. Maybe I am jealous of the friends, the bonding, the sleep overs, the hanging out. I am not one to have a lot of friends, I always have had some close friends and a lot of friends I hung out with occasionally. I’m semi a home body and a a big family person. Now that I am a mom and I stay home, and moved somewhere totally new (and small with a lot of mom’s in cliques) I feel the pang of loneliness I don’t recall feeling. I know a lot of mom’s feel this and I think that’s why it’s kind of crazy, all these mom’s with the same feelings but it seems there is no one there to spend time with. My husband has also been working like crazy, 12 days on (9-10 hour days leaving at 6 am) and 2 days off. We used to (even with our daughter) travel almost every weekend. We would go do tons of fun activities because we were extremely close to lots of cool things. Now we live up north in a small community with not a heck of a lot to do. Plus it’s already winter here so there’s no outside play going on. -17 with windchill isn’t fun. I feel like we are just going along….I know it will change again but life is a crazy roller coaster. I was very creative as a teenager and I still am but a lot of it is really really stuck. I used to write and draw and paint a lot and it flowed easily. I look back on things I wrote and if it wasn’t in my handwriting with my signature I wouldn’t even think I actually wrote it. i wrote really amazing things. But it has been YEARS since I have had any flow with that. So, sometimes I envy teenagers a bit because they don’t know what they have at the time. I did not get it at the time and I thought I did. it’s a very short time and it is insane and hard and frustrating and FUN and you feel like nothing will stop you. It’s really amazing actually. I feel like a much better person now at almost 30, comfortable in my skin and I’m still a little envious. Except I am a little annoyed at my teenaged self for being so reckless with my body because it’s not very happy about that these days!
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RYN: OMG, I really hope my baby grows out of it…I can’t stand the thought of her being like me/growing up like me. I too sometimes miss being young and free…Maybe not so much my teen years, but my college years for sure! I do LOVE being 30 though because the 20’s are just so awkward and stressful.
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RYN: Nope, Flin Flon Mb.
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I totally agree that teenagers waste their time being useless. They just sponge off their parents, get into trouble and are not productive members of society. Sorry your hubby works so much! I get lonely too at home with my son during the day.
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Just wanted to say thank you; I had complained about debilitating menstrual cramps, and in all my life you are the ONLY one who recommended Cal-Mag to me. Even my doctor just tried to push me into going on the pill to alleviate the cramping. But I’ve been taking the Cal-Mag for a few months now and I actually have a life when I have my period now! It still sucks having cramps, but I no longer …
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spend the entire day in bed all day moaning and just wishing I could be put out of my misery. So thank you!
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It’s funny, as a single, and now as a wife without kids, it seems people with kids make friends with others with kids and exclude both singles and people without kids. we, fortunately, do have friends who have a child, and another couple who dont have kids but often have friends with kids over to their house, so it’s not entirely exclusive groups. but I’ve seen so many people just say it outright that they dont want to even be friends with someone single or without kids. my husband and I were thinking having kids would get us into that seemingly exclusive club, but I bet it’s just as lonely there, as you are finding. ryn: gosh, thank you so much for your note about maca! for two reasons – I’m glad to hear it helped balance out hormonal problems for you as that is very helpful. and also, yesterday I took a larger dose and oh my god, I had the worst headache all day, still have it a bit this morning. at least I knew what caused it because of your experience! so thank you for the help. 🙂
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ryn: thanks for your note! It helps to know I’m not alone with the bad cramps experience – I could so relate to your story. though my periods have been pretty regular. I was looking at my charts now that I’ve been learning a lot more about charting, and it looks like there are definitely cycles where I didnt ovulate at all, and it seems so unfair that I had to have my period – and the horrid cramps – when I didnt even ovulate! I thought you might understand that part. 🙂 It’s great to hear that having your baby restored your cycle – that is so encouraging. I’ve heard it can do that, and it’s good to know someone it worked for. that would be truly wonderful. I’ve tried all sorts of herbs (my mom was an herbalist) both Western and Eastern, and calcium and magnesium. I’m taking more of that now. maybe being more consistent will help.
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