Choices

When my husband came home I started crying about how absolutely disgusted i was by the doctor I went to. He flat out said “don’t go to him again, you’re finding someone else.” We discussed what to do and what I don’t feel comfortable doing. So we have decided to find a midwife in the city 3 and half hours drive from where we live. Seems extreme to some but to me I can’t imagine going to either one of the 2 OBs in this town. I don’t think they would listen to me and have my best interest in mind AT ALL. But either way, the doctor I saw yesterday got his assistant to call me and tell me he would not take me as a patient. HA! Oh well, too bad for me…..If you go to midwives and refuse all tests they will not turn you away, they will just help you make an informed decision and then accept it.
I found a midwife office/birthing centre that looks like what I want. I would love to have an at home water birth but that is not in the cards this time. If my previous birth had gone smoothly I would 100% consider unassisted birth in my home. But as it is I would prefer a midwife this time and the birth centre focuses on water births, and they have beautiful rooms and have very experienced midwives. It will be crazy and all the details will need to fall into place as time goes on but I’m excited and feel content with this decision. It is my body and my baby and no one is going to force me to do things I do not consent to.