an old entry

*i was reading this and thought it appropriate to repost.

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only a matter of time and again i will be infamous. try to be happy for once and i end up breaking a few key rules. why not let me face my own consequences? is it that important to shield me from the world out there? well its the world i’m goin into. what better way than to go thru it being held by the hand and protected?

why not be laid back and easy goin. allowing our kids to experience for themselves the dangers of the real world. least later they’ll learn.

over and over they tell me they trust me because i’m so smart so mature. they claim they will support me in all that i do. well why not support me in quenching my thirst to make mistakes? youre not concerned or supporting. you are hypercritical judges waiting for that moment to condemn me just so you get a chance to forget that i am better than you.

youre never concerned with my daily ordeals unless it involves your nose being shoved right into some woopsie daisy situation so you can stretch the story and pass it around. is that what you want? you would rather have me shunned by all others and for me to lose the acceptence i’ve earned.

remember that medal you owe me? you can take it back if all you wanted from the begining was to smother it in my face the moment i did one thing wrong.

there is one reason i’m focused on school. one reason my grades are back to the perfection they once were. one reason i have great teachers calling my name. one reason i have a real chance in this world. one reason i havent abandoned my intentions for the future i once thought of as lost. this one reason is that one person. take a lucky guess. i’ll give you a clue.

ITS NOT YOU.

thanx for the support. its not as appreciated as you’d like to think