Successful Valentine’s Day

I took Valentine’s Day off studying. It was really difficult to do at first. Actually, I didn’t want to take the day off and I spent some time staring at my bar class but not clicking anything. I was in a shitty mood, I didn’t feel romantic, and I honestly didn’t feel like doing anything but studying or crying.

I made breakfast, Husband got me flowers, chocolates, and a card. Then, we went window shopping at an outdoor mall. Picturing our future home and decorating it in our heads. We were planning on ordering in and having dinner at home but as we were walking back home we stumbled upon this really romantic looking restaurant. It’s Valentine’s day, what are the odds we get a table? Well, they had a table open, outside on the balcony, perfect for us quarentiners.

The food was amazing, the drinks were amazing, and we talked and laughed for hours. The waiter noticed how happy we looked and bought us a round of drinks. For the first time in months, I wasn’t thinking about the bar.

I’ve been trying to fix my sleeping schedule, but even when I’m going to bed early I’m not falling asleep, and when I finally fall asleep, I’ve been having horrible nightmares, and then sleeping in wayyyy tooo late. Waking up exhausted and dreading the day. Last night I slept well, and decided I want one more day like Valentine’s day. So, I took the day off again. Made my Husband breakfast and we watched TV literally all day and then I made dinner. I haven’t been cooking or cleaning. Just the idea of doing something other than studying would stress me out. Husband’s been picking up the pieces so I have less stress. He’s so amazing.

I actually feel refreshed. Like I’ll be able to focus on my work. I needed a break awhile ago. I’ve been burnt out for weeks now. Tomorrow’s going be super productive. One week (from tomorrow) til the bar. I passed all my law school classes, why should this test stop me from my dreams. Lets do this shittttt.

Note to self for tomorrow:

Practice test, write out all wrong answers, review videos, practice questions. Write out all essay sample answers, review essay topics.