Letter 10: to someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like.

In December 2020, I started the 30 day writing challenge (I’ll post it below), and I still haven’t finished it yet. It’s more of a 30 letter writing challenge. I don’t want to write one everyday. But I do want to finish it before the end of the year. So, without further ado… here’s letter 10: a letter to someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like.

A,

I’m so thankful for your friendship. You stood by me in my toughest days. Kept me grounded. Helped me find myself. We’ve laughed and cried together. You sat by me through my panic. And you, too, grew from my friendship.

I know you’re scared to reach out since seeing I’ve failed the bar… again. I know you’re waiting for me to come to you. But it’s hard. You were so sure I passed. You practically guaranteed it. And I know you were only saying those things to make me feel better. But I don’t want to face you now. Because all the statistics you threw at me make me feel like a bigger failure. I want you to be the one to reach out. To reassure me that a test cannot determine my worth. To tell me I’m still smart. I’m still capable.

I tell myself, but it’s not the same as when it comes from you. You know my anxiety. You know my test-taking anxiety. You stood by me for every exam. And I just can’t face the world right now. But still, you’re just following the rules. Don’t reach out to someone who failed, they’ll reach out when they’re ready. I don’t think I’ll ever be ready.

I’ll bite the bullet and reach out tomorrow. I know we’re both not where we want to be in life. That we both feel stuck in vastly different ways. I think we need each others help to get un-stuck. I miss you.

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Day 1 – a letter to your best friend
Day 2 – a letter to your high school crush
Day 3 – a letter to your parents
Day 4 – a letter to your sibling
Day 5 – a letter to your dreams
Day 6 – a letter to a stranger
Day 7 – a letter to your ex
Day 8 – a letter to your favorite teacher
Day 9 – a letter to someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 – a letter to someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like
Day 11 – a letter to a deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 – a letter to the person who has caused you the most pain
Day 13 – a letter to someone you wish you could forgive
Day 14 – a letter to someone you drifted away from
Day 15 – a letter to the person you miss the most
Day 16 – a letter to someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 – a letter to someone from your childhood
Day 18 – a letter to the person that you wish you could be
Day 19 – a letter to someone that pesters your mind (good or bad)
Day 20 – a letter to the one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 – a letter to someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 – a letter to someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 – a letter to the last person you kissed
Day 24 – a letter to the person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 – a letter to the person you know is going through the worst of times
Day 26 – a letter to the last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 – a letter to your childhood self
Day 28 – a letter to someone that changed your life
Day 29 – a letter to someone you barely know who has impacted you in some way
Day 30 – a letter to your reflection in the mirror