Survival skills

Eating for the sake of others
Or rather so that I appear to be normal
Eating to avoid questions
Avoid whole conversations that only mean badness
Some days the very idea of food is disgusting
Sometimes I hate eating
Everything about it is horrible
I can’t stand to do it, it’s very actions
I force myself to eat in-front of others and it makes me sick
For now, those are the only times I eat, in the company of others
It’s madness either way