choices.

I’ve been sitting around alot lately. Not really a good thing. I’ve read a few books to keep my brain from thinking too much, but it doesn’t help for long, because the books don’t last too long. My brain devours them.

Between books I’ve been sitting and thinking.

I’ve been fighting with myself about the whole ‘going to college’ thing.

I get really frustrated because of the job situation.

The only option with my job with CSS is to go to Minnesota in September. 3-6 months. And it’s still not a for sure thing.

Meaning Micah would have to live with Dana until I come back, and I wouldn’t get to come home until Christmas (for a week) and then not until the job is done.

But it’s 13 an hour and 85 a day per diem. Close to 2 thousand a week.

My only other option is getting a minimun wage job, keeping my kid, and my house, and struggling while I go to college. College is a FOR SURE thing.

I’m frustrated. I want to go to Minnesota, I need to pay off my past.

But if I don’t register for college now, there won’t be a second chance this semester if the Minnesota thing doesn’t pull through.

See where I’m frustrated?

Plus my grandma is willing to pay for my schooling. IF I do it now. Next semester I can get a gov’t grant, and go full time.

If I keep putting college off I will end up staying in the plants, with no benefits, no insurance, and no guarantee of next week having a job. At least with a degree I’ll have better options.

Seems like no matter what I do, it’s a struggle.

Looks like I’m going to be a college student.