sigh why must there be fat

 sigh so tired of being this weight. ive been thinking about getting liposuction after i have the baby… plus i still attend to keep joggling/running again. running is the only thing at seems to help and not in a gym. i want to be smaller and healthy..well i am pretty healthy other than being over weight. even now i make sure there is plenty of veggies and fruit. i try to make meals a protein and veggie and fruits are snacks. sometimes money issues get in the way but i make do with what i can. i do it for me…and the ones i care about.