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 i have been meaning to update for awhile. I have had things to say but they seem to be passing or forgotten at this point. so it goes. im on here pretty often so its not like i havent had the chance to update just not the motivation. my new job is ok. me and the bf are doing well. im done with being pregnant. randonly sick or tired or pissed off. Add a clingy little boy. i wish myles and randy would be better together. Since i work saturdays..out of need and other motivations the bf is watching myles. trying to get him more active. but hes just lazy most days. 

he really pissed me off this morning. every morning i wake up with him fix his lunch, make coffee, get his uniforms (both) of them ready if not packed. and one day i week i would like  that. i would like him to get up myles. have to cook and clean after him every meal…dress two people in the mornings..and then have to get ready to go to the sitters and get ready for work. maybe i want so sleep in a bit. its not like im asking awhole lot. i jsut want to know he aapreacites what i do for him and show me the e same. is it that freaking hard??? i think so. i work late in. the afternoons he doesnt even cook dinner. not that im always hungry… but then i have to wonder did he feed myles ..if so what did he feed. was it enough. he doesnt have a small appeite. then i come home to their mess. and i cant relax until its picked up. im not asking for it to be spotless. just things out of the floor, dishes done and the table cleaned off. no hes is too lazy for that.