What to do…

Hello ladies,

I am in a dilemma.

Or so I think. Maybe not. I could be perceiving this all incorrectly.

Nicki might actually be falling for me (again). Normally I’d be bouncing off the walls, except for the fact that I don’t really know if she’s the best person for me. She’s dangerous for my heart. Power level over 9000. And she’s so unstable all the time. Too dangerous.

So I’m at the edge of the cliff, and I’m trying to decide whether I should jump or not.

She jokingly asked me to marry her today. I like the idea, but not the risk.

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May 26, 2008

I don’t know you or the full situation but if she’s so unstable maybe just don’t hang around her very often or at least until she gets herself sorted out.

May 26, 2008

Woah. hmm.. I dunno. The problem is that we can’t help who we are drawn to..

i’d say stay away sir. if you’re feeling the doubt vibe before jumping in, trust your gut. but then again, i am the biggest hypocrite to that statement in the whole world. haha

and oh yeah, the first noter said to maybe not hang out with her until after she gets sorted out–i’ve known this guy josh, who i rarely write about on od for many reasons, for two and a half years, and have been waiting for him to straighten up for that long. hasn’t happened yet. some people just can’t do it and it’s better to stay away. but then again, hypocriteeeeeeeeeeeeee

May 27, 2008

Yikes…if you’re doubting things now, I’d say it’s not a good idea.

May 27, 2008

Well, of course you’re gonna be scared/have doubt because love is a BIG DEAL. So is marriage. I wouldn’t necessarily shy away from her, but you should have a “talk.” I know it sounds lame, but getting everything out in the open is always a big help.

May 27, 2008

ryn: sigh. i want uber devoted. just someone who won’t leave, you know? You know.. there is nothing in this world that is worth something huge, if it doesn’t come with a little risk. We can all be unstable.. but one amazing person can make all the difference. I wouldn’t turn your back on her so quickly, my dear.

May 27, 2008

ryn: Sorry it took me so long to respond, but thank you so much for your note. 🙂

June 7, 2008

The risk is always the hardest part.

7/29/10 Why is that we all do things/get involved with people we know are bad for us?