Update

Okay,

There’s so much to talk about… I’ll see if I can cover it all.

October 1st is my move-in date for my apartment in Orlando. It’s a 4 bedroom, 4 bathroom apartment with shared kitchen, living room, washer and dryer.

The place has a pool, a gym, and a tanning bed. I definetly plan to use all 3 of those. Especially the gym.

I am still officially in the Army. I am just on my Transition Leave. October 17th is my official last day in the Army. My sister is helping me organize a get-together with all my friends on that day. So basically what I just said is October 17th (Friday) is a big party for me.

October 22nd is Orientation for my school.

October 27th is the first day of school for me.

I’ve already invoked my GI Bill, but it takes awhile before the army paperwork system catches up, so I’ll still be on my own for awhile. But that’s okay because I planned for this. I’ve saved up what should be more than enough. We’ll see…

I’m still very sad about the death of Eric. It just doesn’t seem real.

I have the lowest self-esteem that I’ve had in years over the loss of Nicki in my life. I’ve never taken a rejection so harshly before. I work out twice a day, drink protein shakes, and take multivitamins…

And now today, I’ve started a new self-improvement — Tanning. April goes to a tanning salon every week. I took her to the Salon today, and decided to try it out. I didn’t like it, but I want to be better than what I am. So I signed up for a month’s worth (It’s pretty much all that I can do before I have to leave to Orlando). After my short session, I was talking to the owner of the shop and she mentioned she had a computer problem… so I hooked her up and fixed her computer. The Operating System was gone so it needed a complete reinstall. She gave me some tanning lotion for free and told me she would help me with my plan-to-tan.

I feel pathetic. I’m not doing all these self-improvements for myself. I’m pretty much doing it for a girl I haven’t seen since December 31st, 2007. A married woman at that. But I can’t help that part. I loved her first. Before Joe Schmoe ever came along.

I just wish she cared. Or that she would notice me. It hurts to know I’ve gone through so much when we were talking to each other, but I was miles away, and now that I’m so geographically close to her, we don’t even speak anymore.

Her birthday is coming up. I want to ask Brooke to send her a text message ‘From Brooke’ (secretly from me) that pretty much says a message along the lines of “Happy Birthday, hope it’s a good one”.

I just hope Joe Schmoe is treating her right. Or I’ll break his face. Yes. I will break his face. In fact I might just break his face for no reason. In fact I will break his face if I ever see him.

In other news, I have achieved my New Years Resolution of gaining 10 pounds (and keeping it) by the end of the year. So far I am easily maintaining the weight.

So wish me luck. My life starts now.

In my Diary Maintenance, I have ended the Chapter called “Army Life” and have created the Chapter “College Life”. And I’ve also updated the front page of my diary to reflect the changes.

~Bruce

PS — I also fixed all the broken picture links that I had 2 entries or so ago. All pictures are now up. I also added some commentary to them.