Day 4/10

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.

Day 4: Seven things that cross my mind a lot

1. I need a job. I’ve never been unemployed longer than a month… I wonder how long it’s going to take to get one. I wonder if it’s going to be game related, or just programming in general. I wonder where it’s going to be. I hope it’s not too cold wherever it is. I hope it’s not too far away from my family. I hope I get paid enough to live at least decently.

2. Nicki. I wonder what she’s doing right now. I wonder if she ever cared at all. I wonder if I’m attractive to her or ugly and she just never had the heart to tell me. I wonder if she hates me. I wonder if she’s happy.

3. Should I learn to play the guitar next, or should I pick up martial arts? I’m kinda leaning towards learning martial arts. Probably something basic to start… like Aikido, then move on to more advanced ones like Kung Fu, Tai Kwon Do or Hapkido. Music doesn’t seem to offer as much discipline or require as much hard work as a martial art would. Plus my working out adds to martial arts, but adds nothing to guitar playing. Ultimately I want to do both though.

4. Now what do I do with my life? I finished college. What’s next? Work until I die? Am I suppose to start looking for a family now? I don’t know how to enjoy life. I don’t know what to do next. Other than get a job.

5. What game do I feel like playing today. When’s the next great game going to come out? They don’t make enough great games, not like they use to. They don’t make them like they use to at all. Will I ever have my name in the credits of a great game?

6. That chick is hot. Of course she is. They’re always hot. That’s how they get to you. That’s how they work. Bah.

7. I dread working out today. But one day, I will be 200 pounds of sheer muscle. I just wish the protein shakes tasted better.

Well. Happy Forever Alone Day to everyone.