Day 2/10

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.

Day 2: Nine things about myself

1. I talk to myself out loud all the time, regardless of whether people are in the room or not. It helps me get my work done and get it done error free, and keeps me from getting lonely when I’m by myself.

2. I am slowly going crazy. More fears, paranoia, and voices that aren’t there.

3. I have arachnophobia and sedatephobia – the latter I picked up from Iraq.

4. I am paranoid that someone is always watching me, hunting me, or stalking me. I have nightmares about these things. I still sleep with a light and knife by my bed side. Sometimes the paranoia becomes so overwhelming I’ll start crying and not even notice it till I feel the tears fall from my chin.

5. I am always looking back at the past. Self-reflecting. That’s why I never get over the women I love until I meet a new one. I cherish moments more than most people ever do or ever will. Even casual friendship run-to-the-stores with friends I remember forever. My friends think I forget but they’ll never know that I never forget. I’m sentimental. That’s why deaths and rejections hurt me more than they hurt anybody else. I never forget or get over them.

6. When I love a game, I play it for the rest of my life often. I still play NES and Atari games often. I never let a game I love go longer than a year without playing it all the way through.

7. Depending on what I’ve been reminiscing about, I either wish to be left alone forever, or wish for someone to come along and take away my loneliness.

8. I want to have a family someday. I want a beautiful wife who loves me and a precious little baby girl. They will be my world.

9. Someone recently casually described me as “Good ol’ Bruce. Always accepting of everyone’s faults.” That and my kindness is all I want people to remember me by.

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