11/03/2013

I don’t know how to enjoy my life. I have a hard time being happy when I feel so aware of all the suffering in the world. I feel so guilty for simply having been born where I was born as who I am. I live in America and I have the luckiest life any man could hope for. But I just can’t enjoy it. I feel guilty that because I won the luck of the draw, I get to live an easy life, whereas had I been born in other places in the world, I would be suffering.

I envy the people ignorant of the world around them. People who can justify why it’s okay for them to live a life of luxury while others suffer. I despise the fools who say “Oh look, a rainbow, God is great”, while completely ignoring bone cancer in children (or other such horrors in the world). What a nice bubble they live in. What a beautiful fantasy. Such a Goku mentality.

I just wish I could save this world. Or end it. I’m never sure which. It just doesn’t seem like there’s anything I can do. It’s just not enough.

Some say the world is a fine place and worth fighting for. Sometimes I agree with the latter.

http://www.bruceariggs.com/od/dockStreet.mp4

PS – OpenDiary is getting worse. I don’t even expect this entry to post.