05/10/2009

Eric

I saw this picture today and it reminded me of you. I think it was mostly this part.

I miss you. Life sucks without you.

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Nicki,

I hope you’re happy, wherever you are. I love you.

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Noky,

I don’t even know what to say. Why?

I hope you are free from the pain you suffered here in life. I miss you.

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I just want to build myself a boat and sail away to some uncharted land and never come back. To protect myself from everyone else, and to protect everyone else from me.

I just want to graduate, get a job, get a house, and work, until I retire. Then die.

I don’t like life. Or the world. That’s my problem.

Everyone has to deal with me. That’s their problem.

I’ve gained some weight. Now I’m at 160 pounds. (72.7 kilos) I started this when I was 130 – 135(59.1 – 61.3 kilos). So I’m doing good.

I wish I knew what I’m suppose to do about this feeling I feel inside me. I wish I could at the very least identify it. Give it a name.

At least my life is getting better every single day. It’s just lonely.

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Eric

Nicki

Noky

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By request, here are some pictures of my skydiving.

~Bruce

Cool skydiving pics.

Xenon

May 10, 2009

Let me just say… you jumped out of a freaking plane! AHH!

catch the sparks

That first picture is really scary. The last two are too, but for a way cooler reason.

hugs my friend…..

ryn. just a slight headache now and a again. but generally back to normal i think. thanks for checking up on me–you’re such a sweetie.

opaque

May 14, 2009

i love salvador dali. i wanted to sky dive – but im not allowed to now. im glad you had the opportunity to. sometime i want to find a little cave in the mountains and be a hermit. its been raining thought and for some reason that makes me happy – when i was little i believed that rain could cleanse the soul.

i read a little poem once it went if every tear we shed for you became a star above you’d stroll in angel’s garden lit by everlasting love. i like the idea that my tears are in some way showing love.