12/3 – wisdom teeth

I had my wisdom teeth out yesterday, it’s pretty crazy. I’m far more afraid of injections than I am of anyone ripping my teeth out, and that’s pretty much how it went. I came down to Houston from college to get it done and had my mom hold my hand while they gave me the shots, no pain at all once the actual procedure started. They had a little trouble getting one of them numb though and I felt bad for making the surgeon take longer than it should have. I don’t know if it’s because I’m pretty hopped up on drugs or what but I really appreciate my mom and dad today. I decided to start rewatching friends for the 4th or 5th time, so that’s what I’m spending most of my sore-mouthed time doing. I really miss lily, she’s pretty much my favorite person ever. I really love her more than anything ever, it’s pretty easy to get caught up in that. I bought us some tickets to visit Denver in February, the same time that we went to new york earlier this year. I hope it’s a new tradition for us. I feel like I’m slowly starting to become more in touch with the side of me that cares about me. That has taken me a very long time but I find myself having the urge to do simple things like even just read, write in this journal or tell my friends that I love them. It’s pretty cool to have that feeling. This month I’ve felt a little bad about how much I’ve made my roommate deal with my small messes. I’m usually pretty clean, but my problem area is the kitchen – I leave a lot of dishes sometimes and the stovetop gets dirty because I cook a lot and sometimes it’s pretty hard to find the energy to clean. We live in an old house that can be harder to keep looking nice – and I think a new goal I want to have this month is to hold myself to a higher standard than that and keep the kitchen clean. I love you all!