Rare Moment

I’m going to keep this short and sweet, but I just wanted to post because I’m actually in a nice mood. So, I wanted my new readers to see the side of me that isn’t all doom and gloom for once. Actually there’s no reason whatsoever for this pleasant mood, but then again, there’s usually no reason for my bleakness so I guess that’s fair. I had a busy day today and pass out near unconscious some time around 8-10PM or thereabouts – a good 4-7 hours earlier than my normal "bedtime". But then I woke up a little after midnight and couldn’t get back to sleep, so I read my book for a few hours – Jack L. Chalker’s Demons of the Dancing Gods (it’s a very short and light read, but since I normally read thousand page books in ten book series’, this makes a nice diversion!) and took some herbal sleeping pills (mostly valerian with a heap of other equally useless crap thrown in), but now, instead of getting all bleak about it like sleeplessness usually does to me, I just feel kind of accepting and peaceful. It’s a calm, mild, windy night, and I don’t have to be anywhere tomorrow. More than the logical reasons though, it’s just a weird random sense of inner peace – no more logical or explainable than my general hatred of life, but much more enjoyable to experience. =)

So, yeah… I wanted to show some of you for the first time, and remind others, that I’m not always the ranting raving cursing cynic you’re coming to know and love – at rare moments, in the dark, solitary hours of the latest night when the whole world seems to be sleeping, sometimes I might, just rarely, when nobody can see me, look out my window and smile… =)