No. 1 CracKer

between the blanket warming thoughts as memories drifting upon the wind of sleep. when reality hasn’t quite sank in yet and the world still has no meaning until that one instant when your eyes open and you realize the world still exists, that is when everything is perfect and no question so much as exists as to why or how. 

with the cough medicine still corrupting the taste of my lips…too much partying this weekend or not enough, too many blues makes it one big blur – you never know if you made an ass of yourself. love the music, hate the OD, damn the fuckers lost my entire diary not just once but twice and here i am still hoping those of you that i love to read upon will still leave me pages of your lives to gaze into and realize my thoughts are yours and yours are mine.

(pause for a beer drinking)

ahhhh the beer is nice with the football and the weather was excellent and here i am rambling but i don’t care if you don’t because here it comes ready or not.

the shadow is plagueing the world a voice of disbelief with no reasoning to explain how opinions are like assholes and everyone has one. one raindrop, teardrop, forgotten mishaps…when they are never forgotten, a skeleton clanking in the closet reminding you that yes as human you did wrong you unsheathed your pole for one who could not be yours because you  and yours had that of your own and in the end skeletons still sing in the dark and peek through the cracks of your soul devouring your sanity in the fact that maybe you even begin to believe that you might be normal…why be normal who wants to?

look at the girl in the redneck hat and blue jeans she carries her pocket knife and would stab and cracker for the No. 1 Cracker who is her friend because friends are family when even true family would not accept you for who you are. friends make the world acceptable and i am a glutton for a friend who loves me and would stand up for me even if i weren’t there and was in the wrong. i want to be that friend iwant to remember lives together i want to grow old and have people who grew old with me i want to get another beer……