i’m the solution

in my moment of unclarity i sit before these keys and listen to the tapping systematic and unnerving all at once. the voice through the phone cut through my being like a knife through butter. on the inside i felt all the strings come unravelling and the ceiling weighing down as its brace broke free. things come in fleeting moments and it’s when the moments have passed when the realization rocks the ground beneath our feet. our moments are apparently predestined, doomed to come and pass before it becomes best to understand. and when we lose these moments our worlds collide some day further down the road, with a display of explosions and masses of inquiries pressed between our lips. the thoughts are poisoned sweet upon the tongue in disguises black and grey. we reach for these moments with things such as hope and faith the need to know we were once something more than a mass of flesh and blood spiraling away from the universe and that our thoughts though simply our own still rang loudly within someone else. it’s true we miss these instances, that they pass right by us. and as they pass we feel the urge to feel alive to feel something deeper than just breathing and living to feel something larger than life. in fact we are all larger than life to at least one person. there is someone somewhere who looks behind unknowing eyes and sees a glory radiating from within, someone who sees through the walls and makes it through all the small traps we set until the outer forces are breached. we all long for that moment, we all know it as something different, we all see it for something else than what it really is. but sometimes we can’t get past the fog to see it at all.
 
it’s true i miss you it’s true i need you it’s true that our worlds are connected it’s true that my heart races at the thought of you it’s true i love you more than life should allow. but i just don’t know what it is you mean……but i know what i want it to mean
 
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