again

i’m in your presence i peer at your flesh so close i can breathe you in taste your smell wish for  your touch. when you’re so close i feel you i know you’re near my essence. the space between us bleeds together a blanket keeping us warm. i look at you and my heart beats faster, i look at you and i can’t help but stare, i see you and i wish that you could see me. it’s easy to feel something easy to know something crawls under the skin. it’s easy to be nothing and peer at the world with  soft eyes. i remember the day you undressed before me, slowly and gracefully you pulled the sweater away from your skin, walked towards the bed as you unbuttoned your pants. and in all your glory you looked to me and smiled as you came to me kissing my lips. you tasted so sweet…… i still feel you sometimes hands against my flesh nails grazing the skin breath hot against my body lips drinking of my ecstasy. maybe you didn’t know but i could tell everytime i looked at you you loved me you loved me dearly and it scared you more than you were able to admit. i loved you i denied my world for you i lost myself to you….could i still love you? could i love you at all? then i feel you against me and i taste your lips as my hands slide down your back i could love you again i could feel your world inside my heart i could know it was you that my heart would beat for i could touch you know you’re close feel your breath against my skin.

i’m not sure who this person is that i have become but i always wanted what i was willing to give. i wanted to feel and you made that happen. sometimes i could still be with you touh you taste you and then i realize that i couldn’t that there is no respect for that person who destroyed the pure image of love which i still held in my heart. sometimes it’s easy to let go and others not so much. could i feel the world coarsing through my veins? could i still know you loved me in a way no one will have your love again? could it mean anything real?

our reality is fragmented stories pasted together bleeding our injustices together for injustices still alive in today’s reality. it’s easy to love once but it’s a trial when it comes to again