feel like crying

I feel like I’ve just been holding it all in. And I cant seem to let it out, so here I go letting it out in words again.

just everything. the job ending and feeling sad that I got let go even though I did everything they wanted, even though it was awful,

the pressure of finding another job just as social security is going to be possibly cut, not knowing what will happen with it, not having had much time to figure out how to clear up my health record, not having much back up (as we planned to still have this job so we’d be ok if social security got cut), worrying a lot about health coverage.

school starting and it being very hard and a bit scary, utterly shitty timing for needing to find a new job, as school just started.

wanting to curl up under a rock as I’ve been so sick and the meds affect my moods and then my neck pain comes up and is killing me and throbbing constantly.

all the crap with K’s parents which is stressful and heart breaking and awful when we just got married.

Ok, I’m going to pray for help, and take a shower, and my plan today is to go to an organization that helps people like me on social security with legal advice etc for free. so I’m going to see them, and ask them what will happen with SS, what I can do to clear up my health record so that it shows that I actually got better. and what I can do to get a job.

plus I get to babysit the twins today for a few hours. thank goodness. 🙂 that’s something fun to look forward to.