esnesnon

 you saved me in my sleep

i called out your name

he was trying to hurt me, kissing me deeply

and pushing through painful thorns, bushes

he was mad 

because he wanted me all of a sudden

because he couldnt have me

but you saved me

i felt so awful and guilty and torn up

and these visions are haunting me everytime i close my eyes.

so much that i am plauged evenly upon my awakened self.

resurect this. i need to go back to the way i was before, but i cant, you cant.

we cannot.

im learning. she said that so long ago, but its forever constant, eternal.

i just dont understand how i can feel so lost within myself so early on. sickening.