crack my ribs

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 i couldnt help but to think of someone when i looked up at the stars tonight.

cause we made plans, say days ago to do just that

but some darling waves swept him up.

but we can tilt our necks and see the same night sky.

how perfect.

but wait i lied.

he cant see the diamond sky i do. i dont know what he saw, but apparently its not the same.

tonight will be the first night in my room. i missed it here.

tent in a rain storm, passenger seat at 4 am., not fun places to try to sleep. let me emphasize TRY. got 2 hrs of sleep on friday and about 5 last night. cold cold cold, both nights. and tonight is only promising 6. oh well. 🙂 at least my dreams have been vivid. i need to get whipped back into shape. stoges, cigars, liquor, no sleep, creepy guys, fun fun.

two nights ago was pretty in a few aspect, and terrible in others. but we’ll leave those out.

i layed on the dock to the lake, while a strange boy from queens played away on his guitar, and i just looked up at the stars, and the reflections in the lake, so pretty and perfect. no one else thought so. just live for the moment, no one was even taking it in. just pulling back stoges and talking trash. petty things consumed. yet.i was so leveled, it was just so darn lovely to not care about a thing in the world, and look up to infinity with the taste of a cheap vanilla cigar still lingering on my tounge.

 these things capture me up and wrap me up and WAKE ME UP. i see new arrangements and colors, its never the same , ever. but its always perfect. imagine that.

love.love