carve it out
churn my insides.
leave a void.
make me numb.
ha. i must be portrayed so defective, so dumb.
a blind little miss. these steps have been placed accurately, and pre-meditated.
i know what im doing, deceptively so.
im still in shock actually. but i bit my tongue.
what else could i do?
play pretend?
i am, you are too.
how did i let it get to my nerve endings.
fixate fixate. on trivail matters. or so i am told is my negative character aspect.
but then he can rant and tell me i am beautiful and intelligent, i have such a great personality. blah blah blah. i cant help but to think friends are subject to feeding me these lines, prove it to me.
so senseless. mysteryyyyyy. ohhh.
buts its all in good fun right?
i can only hope im not being naive.
you don’t strike me as a very naive person (from what i gather from your entries). unless you’re choosing to be naive, & don’t we all want that sometimes, whether it hurts or helps us? be well,
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