black cat

curiouser and curiouser

i took a long walk today. alone. no music no voices no bodies. just me and my brain. i went down lawrence road.. walked through a feild and sat ontop of a hill and watched the sunset behind a dreamy neighborhood. i get so jealous – no, envious, of that sort of thing. a house, and a family. thats all i want, to come home to a house and family. that all seems so foriegn to me. so i sit on hills, or take jogs through these perefect neighborhoods, actually just this one. and i take a deep breathte and pretend its mine. pretend i live in one of those houses and my mom and dad are waiting for me to come home. but then it gets dark and a long walk down a road with no shoulder reminds me of my place.

i dont like feeling a void, i cant put my finger on it, but something is out of place with me right now.

something deep.

i took photos along my adventure today. if im up to it i will upload them in the morning.

as for now… its me in a room full of empty things. maybe thats becoming me too.

love.love